Why I haven't been looking for a job.

Each Monday I make an unofficial (and unwritten) list of things to do for the week. Since graduation (June 12, 2010) I've put "find a job" at the top of the list. After a few applications, and hours of staring at the computer, fishing for jobs in the field I desire, I found ZIP that would hire me. I guess what "they" say is true; you can't do anything with a B.A. in Psychology (or at least, without 3 fucking years of experience doing [insert some type of specific social service here]).

After a few weeks the #1 spot morphed into "find volunteer work." My reasoning was that if a potential employer saw that I had more recent volunteer/intern work (cause I have a lot of past volunteer work, though inconsistent), regardless of the duration, I'd have a better chance of getting hired. So, in my defense, I actually looked for volunteer work and sent out inquiries, and all but one gave no reply. You think with the state of the economy, and social structures in general, more organizations and businesses would want free workers. Not only do they not want unpaid employees, but they don't even want educated and qualified unpaid employees.

WTF

So I've given up on that endeavor, for now. I've come to the conclusion that I deserve some time off! I have spent nearly 18 years of my life in school, non stop (with a year break somewhere in there); I'd like to entertain the idea of having some "me time."

So I say "here here!" to getting wasted at least twice a month, and drunk at least once a week; to getting back into drawing and painting; to overcoming my fear of singing in front of others; to having a "girls night out" at a bar once in a while; to starting a save file for some video game classics, and to finishing all save files for those games I have neglected to complete.

But wait...there is a problem with all this. I have a life that I need to keep on track. I have a house now, containing boxes that remain unpacked. I have a garage that needs to be cleaned out, and bathrooms that need to be fixed. I need to work as much as I can so I have the funds to ensure we even get to keep this house.

We also need money so we can even have a nice wedding. Why does everyone ask me why it has taken so long to even get engaged. Well, here is the answer: cause we're poor.

And, well, irresponsible too; but thats because it took us 3 years to realize we even liked each other enough to want to marry each other.

Anyway...yes, Cody and I are pretty poor kids. Been poor our whole lives; growing up we had little compared to everyone else, and we knew it. Once we became adults, with good paying jobs, and little rent courtesy of our parents, we suddenly had an influx of money, and we finally knew what it was like to have what we wanted. So we had a lot of fun for two years. But now...now we finally realize how better off we could be at the moment, if we had known back then that we'd still be together, in our own house, planning a wedding.

And weddings, mind you, are hard to plan; especially when you are as lazy as I am, and you are stuck with doing it all by yourself. So though I have been taking time for "me" and not for "things that involve me, but are not directly effecting me at this very moment," I think I need to use all this free time to get cracking on the pending nuptials.

And that is why I haven't looked for a better job.